Today was the last day of school.
Not for the teachers, but I don't even care. The kids are gone. THE KIDS ARE GONE, HOLY FUCK, THE KIDS ARE GONE. I wasn't kidding when (if?) I mentioned that this year had been challenging. So when I JUMPED back off the wagon in February, I was really stressed out. Me and the classroom teacher I was with couldn't get it together, we both blew the fuck up health-wise. There was just SO much we had to deal with...
But I made a deal with myself. As soon as the kids are gone, I'm getting back on this ride. I allowed the kids to freak out my mind and rob me of my health for months, it isn't fair.
Slowly.
I'm going back on my water tomorrow, I think I'll modify my eating in a week or so. Also...I'm scared to get on the scale. I don't think I will for a while. I REALLY blew up. I won't be able to go back to the elaborate rewards system I set up for a while. BUT! One step at a time.
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