I think that hurts the most about regain is the shame. You were already hurting because of being so big in the first place, but this is so much worse.
The thing that I'm most ashamed of in this second regain is not my ankles swelling so badly again (though that would be a close second. It's the fact that I've had to abandon my computer room. I do a LOT in there. I conlang (make constructed languages) and a lot of my stuff is on the computer. Oh yeah, I haven't STOPPED, but I've been forced to rely almost solely on my laptop for my creative stuff because I can't be comfortable in there.
Last year, I bought a smaller desk to be a little more ergonomic. And I just needed a new one. I loved it SO MUCH. But now I can't use it because I've gotten to big for it and my computer chair. (Sure, I can FIT, but the sides pinch me and it effing HURTS.)
I want to go back to the days where I didn't HAVE to use the laptop all the time at home. Well, because of my size, anyway. It's an old comp and sound can be finicky. Boo.
EDIT: This was written and meant to be posted two days ago. WTF, Blogger?
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