I gained a pound. RIGHT AFTER I made a post about doing those things to cheat, I went ahead and did them. It was pretty disgusting. Texas Pete hot sauce is pretty mild, but it has a nice twang to it, so I like to just take swigs of it. (I believe one character did that in Touched by an Angel?). I would do that and eat tortilla chips. So I threw them both away this morning. Ugh, no more, please.
Like my mother, I am a night eater. I do SO WELL during the day, but when I'm at home, I've got zero accountability going on. I think it's because I like watching TV in the living room, which is adjacent to the kitchen. Easy access. If I keep myself occupied in my room or the computer room (also right beside the kitchen, but behind it in a way that it's not in my immediate view), I may have a chance.
The only problem today is that a co-worker may take me home today. With two hours to kill by myself, I may be destructive. I better take a nap, then work out when I wake up again.
I should get back into drawing everyday. It's frustrating, but at least I don't eat when I'm in the zone.
EDIT: Speaking of drawing, the other day, another episode of My 600-lbs Life premiered, featuring this woman named Penny. It was on of the most frustrated episode's I'd ever seen, because she's just like me. I don't make stupid excuses about my diet or live in a fantasy world about my weight, but I do make excuses about art, I believe. It's hard to admit it, but I'm afraid (really afraid) that the weight holding me back on my art is a bit of an excuse. Some of it's legit (like not being comfortable in some drawing positions and things), but I should be more resourceful than that.
EDIT 2: The co-worker thing and working out didn't happen. But dinner was nice, breakfast for dinner. Two scrambled eggs and some cereal. Maybe some yogurt if I get hungry later. BUT I AM STICKING TO IT.
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